Blog 7/2024

Monday 29th July 2024


Service - Sarah Gilmartin

ISBN :- 978-1911590828

01 - Julie
Day to court told of family, Dan and Julie through the years.

02 - Hannah
About Hannah starting in the restraint and what goes on there. Julie visits and likes her. Ends up mentioning about some incident that occurred

03 - Dan
Visits brother who seems to be avoiding him. Awkward with Susan (sister-in-law), nice to him but an undercurrent, keeps her daughter out of the way.

04 - Julie
Talks about a letter from four of the past employees, about how things in the past seemed ok but get worse with time and hindsight. Lied to Dan so he’d stay at home but he knew. Picking up kids from school, interaction with ‘caring’ mother, goes and get ice-cream with the boys and calls to the drycleaners but it’s closed and she breaks down and calls sister.

05 - Hannah
In work Julie and the ‘fire’ for clampers. Time with the critic. In the crypt getting lemons and Dan arrives, Eve got a 200 Euro tip. Sunday night party and talking outside with Dan about working in the kitchen. Her parents came to the restraint but no space and Dan gives them 200 Euro voucher to come back.

06 - Dan
Makes pancakes, goes for a swim, speaks with barrister and finishes day with a 90 minute massage.

07 - Julie
Court hearing about Tracey, after goes to zoo to meet someone, home to see sister there and has fight with Dan, Dan wants to talk to her and says he never needs to force himself to have sex with anyone, she closes the curtains

08 - Dan
Goes for a walk doesn’t swim as there is a group already there, calls into shop and Orlaith comes after him to talk, he has indigestion and bribes staff to let him use the toilet, goes to church and then home where he is confronted by Julie for talking to Orlaith at the shop. Goes to meet Rory (brother) that evening for dinner but he doesn’t show. Flynn (cousin) is there, Dan reacts to Flynn talking about Hannah.

09 - Hannah
Party night, lots of drugs and alcohol, locked out with Dan, let in by Flynn. Dragged into kitchen by them, Dan got rid of Flynn and raped Hannah, cut on her head and in shock. Mel wants her to go to the Guards, she doesn’t.

10 - Julie
Last day in court, Dan called to stand, felt responsible for what happened in restraint now but that’s how it was. One night Julie woke up with Dan having sex with her, she told him to get off and he did, all normal in the morning.

11 - Hannah
Hannah’s life ruined by ordeal, distant and failed relationships.

12 - Dan
Jokes with Roland. Back to restraint, forgot about boy’s day out but Julie reminded him, goes to refurbished restaurant to scout it out with the boys, Mel the ex-employee is there, kicks them out.

13 - Julie
Quiet morning, goes for run and reading paper but midday everyone still in bed. Goes to see Oscar, he cries and tells her about what happened in the restaurant. She leaves the boys at the cinema and bumps into Orlaith who mentions she seen something before Dan’s interview. Gets home and Dan is irritable while cooking.

14 - Hannah
Catch up with Mel, Tracey arrives and she agrees to talk about Dan.

15 - Dan
Find out about civil suit, leaves work and gets the train home.

16 - Julie
was going to leave Dan once things had settled a bit, finds out about the civil suit when she saw that it was Hannah she knew that it was all true. Driving to airport very fast while the boys are in the back with their passports, going to England or Wales, they seem happy.

Wednesday 3rd July 2024


Giant Insy Steps


Hi everyone, what a strange period of time. It’s been a couple of months nearly since the last time I’ve posted anything. In that time, I have been very limited on what I can and can’t do which is mostly nothing. At the same time what I have done has been BIG!

Firstly, the usual stuff of reading and watching films there has been plenty of that going on, books of note that have stood out have been Foundation’s Edge, Frieda McFadden books and Harry Potter. Films that stood out Midsommar, Freaks, Face/Off and the Pirates of the Caribbean. I say stood out but they’re ones I’ve remembered watching, my brain is very much a just pure mush by this stage. My recollection is so bad and really need prompts to remember things.

I think this is a lot down to the lack of social interaction but I really do struggle spending any length of time with people. I don’t have the focus to listen to people and them to expect an acknowledgement that I’m listening every few seconds. It’s very easy for me to go a day or two without actually talking to anyone. And a few messages to and fro is suffice to acknowledge I exist, you exist, we know the other knows the other still exists, that’s enough for me at the moment as everything is so difficult.

The hip that had the surgery has improved so much over the last couple of months at a pace I was not expecting. I do find for some reason that it improves a lot more when I’m at home than at my parents, like not just a little, it’s a very noticeable difference within a few days. I think it’s a combination of the shaky chair and the angle that it sits at and I think my legs are a bit warmer in my own house too as I usually have a throw over them. And so the result is there is more blood flowing around the legs and helping them improve.

Over the last few weeks, I’ve managed to start to get back on the exercise bike, not much resistance and just the movement, the hard part is getting on and off but once there I’m able to manage for a while. Just generally being able to do anything is improving and can even manage a step or two, although I wouldn’t try it without the having the banisters there to grab as it is still incredibly weak as was shown this morning. I was standing leaning behind my chair waiting for the kettle to boil and then suddenly the leg just gave way and I was on the ground. Thankfully being behind the chair, I was holding on and I only fell onto my knee, otherwise I would have fallen back and banged my back and head.

Compared to the last time which really zapped my confidence, this didn’t. If anything it was a good thing that despite all the progress that I have most definitely made over the last few weeks, it still has a long way to go before I’m properly able. I have been careful and not been taking any chances, any time I’ve left the house I’ve wore the brace and not went any distances. So this was a you’re doing it right don’t take any chances! And I’m not going to!

The other leg that still needs the work done has been getting incredibly painful, I would say to the extent or even worse than what the other had been before getting the work done. Every step, it doesn’t help that with the brace on I need to go on my tiptoe on my right to step forward and I still end up having to swing the leg round.

The sooner the now good leg improves and I’m able to use it properly the sooner I’ll be able to get the work done on the other leg and then at least I’ll not be in so much pain, I may not be able to walk for a while but at least it wont be sore… I hope.

The house hunting had continued, there were a few places I went to that I knew just wouldn’t be suitable but it was giving me an idea of the price range of the different houses in the different areas. And then there was one that I knew had potential and I knew after going to view it that that was going to be the one I was after, I put in a low ball offer and they can back with a counter which I accepted and then the ball was rolling getting everything organised and just yesterday pretty much everything is all ready to go ahead with signing stuff and getting a date to move in… again… I hope.

There has been a lot of back and forth with different things which has been a bit frustrating but it’s helped delay things a little to give more time to get things organised, as irritating certain things have been it has been reasonably stress free so far, there’s still time though. It will be good once I move in through the door and start putting my own stamp on the place and making it my home.

Still time for things to go pear shaped…

Anyway I think that’s all for now again, I just hope the leg continues to improve and the other doesn’t get any worse and then I’m maybe able to manage something… anything than just sitting about waiting.

Until next time.