Hi everyone, hope you are all doing well as usual. I read some sad news a couple of days ago and would like to send my condolences it can’t be easy, but you are in mine and many others thoughts.
Monday afternoon I just done the usual tv, reading, games and in the evening I thought it would be good to try and go for a bit of a walk outside, it’s very much different from being on the treadmill. I went out and pretty much within a minute I knew I wasn’t going to last too long. I went round the block and little bit through the park, the worst part is that there is the slightest of hills to the house and had to stop on the way up my lung capacity is severely reduced. Home, relaxed and bed.
Tuesday, I finished FFVII remake, pretty good game, just a pity it’s only the start of the game. I have the original on the Switch so decided to play a bit of that. Tuesday again was the same as yesterday although I didn’t attempt the walk again. I phoned up the GP to get the sutures removed, but they didn’t have any spaces until the week after, I told them that I tried to book a slot last week and was told to phone back today and would have to phone back again after they’re due out to try and book a slot. They said they’d get the nurse to phone me to try and “squeeze me in”, thankfully not long after I got a call and have to go on Thursday to get them removed.
I fell asleep early and woke up again when I would normally be going to bed and the rest of the night was a very broken sleep. It didn’t help that the next morning I was at hospital for and echo scan.
I got a call last week about going for it, thought it was for the BMT docs, in a way it was but was the cardiologist that had booked it. They didn’t really give anything away but at least there wasn’t anything serious as they let me go on home afterwards. I do think there is some abnormality as she had said about comparing it to previous scans. There are a couple of known issues so hopefully it’s just one of them. There was a moment when she stuck the scanner into the side of my ribs that made me laugh, something like the “electric shock” thing you done when you were a kid that was incredibly irritating. On home and then nothing until the evening when I watched the Northern Ireland game and another attempt at a walk.
The walk was much better than the other night, I was able to get a bit further but didn’t push it, seemed to do the optimal distance as when I was coming down the street to the house I seemed to reach my limit. It was spitting a little, I always enjoy walking in the rain but this was a nice step towards that, rather than getting soaked just feeling the mizzle on my face.
Thursday I went and got the stitches removed, we were having general chat and I said something along the lines of “it’ll not take long, will be straight forward enough”, which it is, you cut the plastic and pull it out. She said in reply “oh well you can’t do it yourself” “well no I can’t, I can’t see it, maybe if I had eyes on the back of my head, but then even if that was the case, I still wouldn’t be able to see it”. I didn’t think much of it at the time, but writing this makes me think I should have been cheekier.
Anyway, before I go off on one…
*Deletes rant*
Now I’ve got that off my chest lol. I needed some milk and thought I would go to Tesco and get some supplies for a nice lunch also. It was the first time I’ve been in the shop since well before the national lockdown as I had been locked down months before then too. It was nice, genuinely a bit of normality again. It was also the first time that I had ever got a trolly, I always just used a basket before but with how my back is I was never going be able to carry and empty one around the shop never mind after I’d put stuff in it. So a wee stroll around and throwing a lot more in the trolly than was needed, at least I have lunch for a couple of days sorted and even longer. On home and made lunch.
Later in the day I went out to get the bin in and of course going up the steps to the back of the house I felt a twinge in the back. Started off like someone was just poking their finger in my back and a sharper pain when trying to get up from a sitting position or lying down. This is how it started last month and got gradually worse for a few days before it peaked and very, very slowly improved. That evening I just went to bed a lay down moving as little as possible and similar on the Friday too so that it doesn’t trigger too much. It was still getting worse and the seemed to peak on Saturday and not quite as extreme today.
On Friday I was in the mood for a proper chippy chip, but I had a decent lunch and wasn’t hungry enough to make it worthwhile. Instead on Saturday I didn’t have much of a lunch and got a battered sausage supper for an early dinner just in time to watch the all-Ireland final and football. Ate about half of it which is the norm but they are proper greasy chippy chips and are lovely. I was tempted to just go up to bed, stick on the tv and doze off at any point, but instead I stayed downstairs and played Hitman 2.
I had seen on Prime the tennis was on and though I’d watch it, it’s not often I do but I was glad I did, I feel like I watched a bit of history and you know the way you can watch some things and they’re not very good but are history all the same, this wasn’t like that. It was genuinely a really good match to watch and considering it was two teenagers shows there is going to be years of this ahead. Hopefully it will be more than just the two of them and there is a whole batch of great tennis players coming through. It was a great match and well worth watching. Off to bed and then this this morning, can’t get comfortable with my back so may need to lie down for a bit to try and ease it, but I’m trying my best to take as little pain killers as I can and doing quite well with it, they are very much needed though.
Generally, I just feel a bit crap, always feeling a rough in the mornings when I get up and neck/head is sore in the evenings and the fluid retention too. It’s always pretty bad in my feet in the evenings and feel it around my body in the mornings. I’m hoping with doing a bit of walking this will gradually ease, which I think it is. Everything I do takes at least twice as long as it should. Just throwing on your socks or shoes is a real chore and rather than taking a few seconds can take a few minutes. Pretty irritating. Progress is slow but there is progress.